Have you ever thought about the story of Jesus raising Lazarus? I mean really thought about it? I've always studied it from Martha, Mary, and Jesus' point of view but never really Lazarus' point of view. What did he think about all this? Was he mad? He was in a great place. He was where he wanted to be, and then he's called back. How did his life change? Did he become a risk taker? Knowing what death held and the wonderful things awaiting him, did he live life differently? Do I live my life differently knowing that I have something so great waiting for me? Am I now a risk taker? Driving home from church Sunday night, I heard Ashlyn singing her heart out with Casting Crowns. Carter was trying his hardest to get the words out. ( He mostly just praised with his hands). What a pleasure that was. I remember thinking how wonderful that moment was and then to know that there is something so much better. I can't even begin to comprehend that kind of joy. I want so much to live without grave clothes holding me down. So that's my prayer for today! Be a risk taker for God. Live because I've already died!
My heart hurts for Carter. He hates dayschool! Not just that he doesn't want to go, he absolutely hates it. Specifically the aide in his little class. It hurts me to leave him in his class, but how do I leave my commitment at school? Do I let him try to get over it? And so until the answer is clear, I pray. I pray for Carter, that he'll learn to love his teacher and little friends. That the teacher will have a part of her heart softened for his little confused soul. And for me to know what to do as the mommy to make it all better!
I'd like to think that everyday is the start of something exciting. Unfortunately I let the Evil One take over my thoughts and God's work is not accomplished. I have always loved the idea of journaling. But, (don't we always have a but?) time never seemed available. I'm hoping (after reading some previous bloggers entries and the comments) that this will be a tool for encouragement, growth, and most of all accountability for myself. So with that said(whew! What an intro!) Here is to the Start of Something Exciting!